Gaping Gut Hole
I keep losing Bloglines subscribers.
I guess this turning into a bit of a Mommy Blog bored some people.
When I bought this domain, I really didn’t intend to end up back in the same feminist circle. I guess old habits die hard.
When I realized that I might actually carry the pregnancy to term, I didn’t intend for this to become another baby blog.
In fact, I sort of take issue with a lot of Mommy Blogs—Dooce being the biggest example I can come up with off the top of my head. I know I wouldn’t be comfortable putting my kid out there like that. I mean, scary internet stalkers aside, there’s the notion that maybe one’s children don’t want an online biography they’ve got absolutely no input on. It just seems ethically questionable to me.
On the other hand, I understand why people do it.
I have baby-focused tunnel-vision. My days and nights, ears, eyes, and brain are pretty much all baby, all the time. I am, technically, fucking boring at the moment. What isn’t baby focused, is mildly irritated with continuing gut hole and concerned about getting enough hours on my paycheck. (Yeah. I’ve got a 2 week old that has to nurse every 2 to 3 hours, and a weeping surgical incision with a low grade fever, and I’m still working. Who’s hardcore? I’m hardcore, dammit. At least, until I collapse, I am.)
So, I’ll see what direction this thing heads in. But, I’m not making any promises. Heh.
tags: internet, personal problems
I think that’s kinda the beauty of this whole thing is that Nine Pearls can evolve and be what you want it to be.
I’ve always been curious about how much people are willing to put their kids out there on their blogs with no anonymity at all, but, that’s just me. In one respect I do think it would be cool to be able to look back at a daily or weekly accounting of what my mom thought of me when I was a wee one. But on the other hand, I’d like to, you know, have the option to run for office without having my baby pictures SO readily available.
— Dylan Oct 29, 06:19 PM #
You know what, no one stays the same forever and ever. As your life changes and evolves, so too the blog. Of course your focus is BABYBABYBABY right now, good grief, you’re what, a couple of weeks out! It won’t always be this intense, plus, the hormones alone are probably kicking your ass. I can’t believe you’re working!
“Mom” doesn’t have to mean “boring”. I hope—if it does, i’m screwed, ha!
— more cowbell Oct 30, 11:51 PM #
wow. you are hardcore.
how’s the gut hole today?
— antiprincess Oct 31, 12:08 PM #
Take care of yourself. The blog can wait. You. Must. Take. Care. of. Yourself.
I command it.
— Rootietoot Oct 31, 02:04 PM #
When my baby was born, I had a TV column for a local weekly alternative newspaper. I couldn’t concentrate on whole shows, so the first few months, I analyzed the (then brand new) phenomenon of CNN and other 24-hr news networks, and how news “morphed” from one feeding to the next. It started as a kind of riff, and then it was pretty good! People loved it!
Just sort of riff into your new mommy-self, which is there like a butterfly waiting to emerge. :) She will be as perceptive and fun as you are, but just about different stuff!
— DaisyDeadhead Nov 2, 02:06 PM #
I’m a selfish person so I think, screw the readers (me included) and just do whatever makes you happy. If that’s writing about the baby 24/7 for a while, then so be it.
It’s because of this logic that I get no traffic but eh. In twenty years, when I’m reading back over what I wrote, it won’t be the number of readers that I’ll think about.
But then, like I said, I’m selfish so what do I really know?
And yeah, you’re hardcore. Most mommies are, I think. You gotta be. Shit. Raising a kid isn’t for wimps.
— pea Nov 2, 03:09 PM #
just so you know, i didn’t actually leave. i just moved everything from bloglines to google reader.
i say blog about what you want to blog about. my blog is certainly completely different from 2 years ago. when was the last time i blogged about trans issues and identity?
none of us are static. i like to hear what people are excited about in their lives. it provides a nice refuge from the constant barrage of depressing news.
— vegankid Nov 5, 09:53 AM #
I’ve read a few of your posts and today’s made me all teary eyed. I hope you recover soon.
— Mia Nov 7, 12:41 PM #
I’m amazed how quickly readers drop off but then come back when I’m writing crap or nothing at all for weeks at a time. Your stats will recover. And, if you’re like me, you will grow weary of baby immersion and want to write about other stuff too. For the record, I like reading about people’s kids once I know them (as bloggers) in a different way first.
I’ve been obsessing over an embarrassing relationship for months – that’s torturously dull compared to sharing the trials and tribulations of birth. It just happens to be the center of my life right now, overpowering serious social injustices around the world. I’ll present the illusion of intelligence again one day.
Hope you feel better really soon!
— Sage Nov 7, 01:37 PM #